November 14, 2013
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3 Signs to Make a Billion
When preparing yourself to tell the object of your affection how you feel about s/he, you should watch out for these three signs:
1. A sign that s/he is thinking about you
An invitation to coffee right before a really important meeting or a few phone calls in the middle of class — one right at the start and one right before the end —, asking what you're doing what you get out or even a simple "good morning" text are all obvious signs that this person is thinking about you. You can talk about everything or you can talk about nothing but if you're talking, then you hold some sort of significance to him or her.
2. A sign that the universe wants it to happen
Perhaps it's your car breaking down and she is the only person within the vicinity who you know for sure can take care of it or making a deal with the next stop light that you will tell him for sure if it turns green NOW. You're never sure what it is but if you can feel it in your heart that it's got to happen, then it's got to happen. All the spaces on the board say, skip to GO! then motherfucker, skip to GO! The only thing in the universe that could possibly stop it from happening is you. The universe will make it happen.
3. Rain
Whether it's a hard rain after walking out a bar, deciding that you're too frustrated to deal with it anymore, or a slow rain fall to your car illuminated by the fluorescent lights in the parking lot; if there's rain then you better freakin' do it. That's some perfect scenery, Sleeping in Seattle, C-B-D-A grade movie-style crap. There is absolutely no reason to walk away from an opportunity you can write into a book and make millions off selling to a bunch of heartbroken teenagers and hopeless romantic 30 year old women.
The signs don't have to come in order and they don't have to come at all — just do it when it feels right — but hell, if they do come you better do it. Whether it's a sit down at the beach, spilling your heart out or just tossing it over your shoulder as you speed away in your silver sedan, if you know you've reached the most opportune moment you better do it. Because the regret of not doing it and wondering "what if" is always more painful than being shot down.
As for me, I got all the signs. Every single one. Last night. But, little Miss Fearless somehow chickened out. After a full week of everyone realizing that it's my turn now and a number of opportunities that I could have and him asking me "...is that all you wanted to talk about? I thought you wanted to talk about something else" and it all accumulated into my best friend — and ex boyfriend, mind you — scolding me for a good half hour and telling me that I better fucking do it (despite the fact that I made almost no mention of him for a month and didn't tell him that I didn't do it or even wanted to) and to stop being a "chicken shit".
And I got into my car, saw the rain stop right after and slammed my head into my steering wheel for being so much of an idiot to miss the opportunity that the universe basically laid at my feet and said "bitch, move". And I'm sitting here, shaking my head for missing one of — of not THE — last window that the universe is going to allow for me to get this right.
And I'm feeling in my heart that it needs to happen soon. Tonight, even. And it'll be mini-grandeur. I just don't know how or what. I'm just hoping it does.
So: Universe/God/Santa Claus/Mr. Postman,
Please answer me. Allow me one more shot. It doesn't have to be today or tomorrow but please give this to me. No more screw ups. I will get this. I promise, hard. I'm not done yet. And I know I can and will do this.
I'm just waiting on the rain.
Love always,
Z.
