January 31, 2012

  • Insecure.

    I get so upset by all the time that goes by without hearing from any of you girls or without getting a text message asking to hang out. I'm losing the sense of belonging I used to have. I'm losing all the sense of security and I feel like that's all my fault. As if my worst fears have truly come to life and I will end up having backs turned to me.  

    And the problem is that I'm just sitting here and letting it happen rather than fighting against it. I'm going back on my words; the ones that said that I'll fight no matter how hard it takes for us to stay and be comfortable together. I'm not. I'm just sitting here and watching, waiting for everything to fall apart. That isn't supposed to be how it is. This is far from it. What am I doing?

    What is wrong with me?

    -- ZelleZ