January 8, 2012

  • RE: Mr. Lonely

    I believe we discussed you anticipating anything that could possibly throw off the nature of any of your relationships. It's a shame though that it had to have happened. I am up writing to you because I myself cannot find it in me to sleep so I shall share some words with you before my next attempt to drift off into slumberland. Be wary though, as much as I'm up I'm not exactly coherent and my eyes keep zooming in and out of the computer screen. I hope that this means that I am tired.

    And though it's a shame, you have you consider why you went through with it in the first place. You hadn't had any intention but you did want to form some sense of accomplishment in a department, am I right? Perhaps if I am wrong then you shall be deemed the village idiot but I believe that spot has already been filled. 

    And while life and feelings and people are everchanging, be aware that everything will be beautiful in the end. And I'm sure you're already aware of that. And perhaps I'm not the best person to consult of loneliness in regards to relationships for I have been one of the lucky few to have found the boy. And if I'm very unlucky, perhaps there'll be another.

    And perhaps shit happens. And perhaps shit will always happen. People walk into your life and teach you a lesson before ever walking out. Remember that. It's all about perspective, really. And though that's something to remember so is this: there will be those who never walk out and keep teaching you and keep learning with you. Finding those people will make every ounce of hardship worth it. Remember that we are just beginning. But don't worry, love, you will be powering through and raging on like the amazing person I know you are and were meant to be. 

    -- ZelleZ