October 8, 2011

  • "Christmas 2012?"

    "Yup."
    "Then I guess I'll see you in heaven, since the world's going to end."
    "Would you know my name? If I saw you in heaven."
    "Of course."
    "Would you?"
    "Yes. If for some reason we don't make it together, I'll always know who you are." 

    As will I, love. I will always know you as the one who helped me learn how to love myself. Who made it easy for me to love others. Who taught me that people are genuinely beautiful, myself included. You encouraged my fascination of the world. Fascination for knowledge. For music. For film. For art. You never expected any less of me when it came to my dreams  — always telling me to follow them. And if for any reason I couldn't succeed in something, you always made sure that I didn't beat myself up over it; it helped me to strive for better results for a next time.  

    I know I'll never forget the person who showed me the beauty of the world around me. Who taught me that it was nothing to be scared of, how to be fearless. And who has been teaching me how to love and literally how to be loved; it is you who helps me believe that I am amazing, just the way I am. 

    If it ends up that you are not who I end up waking up to every morning, I know I will always carry a piece of you in my heart. Wherever I go and whatever I do, I will. Should it seem that it must be that way, this is how I'm going to love you. Forever and always. 

    -- ZelleZ